Break Reform - Fractures

You say you love and now you don't
You say you want me but then you won't
Readjust this siutation
Because I'm not your prime consideration

Peek-a-boo, here I am, were you expecting me?
Here it is, I take it back, do not depend on me
I loved you then, I love you now, but it works seperately
We exist out in space, not in reality

It leaves me asking just one little question
What is it that you are trying to say?
Let me point out something else in addition
What if it don't go you way?

Do you ever picture me in someone's arms?
His mouth on mine as he lays me down
I call his name when he makes me come
Does this affect you even slightly?

What will they think, what will they say?
Is it a matter of too high of price to pay?
Don't rock the boat or over-analyze it
To (?) love so small means it's easy to disguise it

I'm trying to feel something different
I'm trying to harbour no resentment

It leaves me asking just one little question
What is it that you are trying to say?
Let me point out something else in addition
What if it don't go your way?

If I allow myself to accept as truth
What is actually a string of excuses
Am I the thought (?) that I should take this abuse and
Blindly welcome emotional bruises

Don't be angry, don't get pissed and don't get mad at me
All I've done is tell you what it makes me feel
If you want her then you know that you can't have me
It's a false professed love and it's sickly weak

I'm doing my best to understand this
I have given to much to not to take this
I'm trying my best to rise above this
I have taken too much
I can't continue this